Jesus take the wheel cause' I keep swerving into traffic.
Take that Seroquel, the miracle that stops my psychopathic
Episodul lose of all fucking control.
To not be dead or
at least higher than all the people I admire in this world.
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Are we alone or are we sent here by design?
Does any of it fucking matter or are we just wasting time,
with our monotonous existence?
With such painful persistence,
I've been building up a distance between myself and the suicidal mindset
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(Set) down your bowl for just a moment, hear me out,
I know you're faithfully so hateful to this world, I know I was devout
before I figured out nobody really fucking cares.
So you can take off your headphones now and stop being scared.
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Fall face first, and feel the burn.
It's time to learn that you can handle it.
Just get out of bed before you atrophy and stand a bit like,
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I've been so inactive spending years just merely acting
like I had control over anything.
Living life a crippled spastic hating fucking self medicating, self deprecating fucking asshole,
without a god damned clue how to move on and forget about the past.
So let's get through this pain soaked day the only way I know I've got,
and that's with coping skills and nasty pills and mass amounts of pot.
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And I don't know, where I'll go.But I'm not failing three times in a row.
And I've got a gun (I don't),
and I'd say it's been fun.
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But it's been hell in handbag lugging this bed of nails around.
Always rains just enough to waterboard but not to drown out all the signals with substantiated cures.
I am shooting for September but I'm really just not sure
If I can keep this mask glued on with painkillers and hash,
Clued onto all the latest fads
Like shoving weed up my ass
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And if I’m breathing still, then ignore me. But if I’m bleeding on the floor please let me die, do not resuscitate, and bring me back to this world I hated
(Hated) every fucking moment of my turgid existence,
Despite this I’ve been making plans and still going the distance,
Required for humans to be seen as normal,
All the while making shit poems to act as informal
Suicide notes, and last wills, this last pill might kill me
But it's better than waking up to know that I'm still me.
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Jamie pull that up, we're got a live one and and he's dead.
Everything in his life was fixable except that big hole in his head.
The nightly news at 5 identified him and, by that I mean Reddit, misinformation is our nation, do your Civic duty, spread it
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(It) was his dying wish to be on your TV.
And for you to know exactly what he means.
When he says “we're all fucking dying out here”
Hopefully it's crystal clear, that we don’t belong here,
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